First published 2010
Caitlin sees the world in absolutes. Good or bad. Right or wrong. No confusing middle ground. Her older brother Devon always helped her navigate the gray areas that made no sense to her eleven-year-old mind shaped by Asperger's. Now Devon is gone, killed in a school shooting, and their father retreats into his own grief. Caitlin desperately wants to move forward but doesn't understand how. She discovers the word "closure" in the dictionary and decides this is exactly what she needs. Her quest to find closure leads her through a world that refuses to stay black and white. Colors emerge everywhere, messy and complicated and sometimes beautiful. As Caitlin learns to see beyond her rigid categories, she begins to understand that healing doesn't follow the clear rules she craves. The path forward requires her to embrace the very ambiguity she has always feared.
Genres: fiction, mental-illness, contemporary, family-drama
Vibes: emotional, intimate, thought-provoking
Tropes: found-family, grief
ebook · Philomel Books
Content warnings: mental-illness